Tuesday, December 13, 2011
FIGHT FOR YOUR DREAMS
These words are from one of our wounded warriors with a TADSAW SERVICE DOG posted on facebook only a few days ago. "Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential , and fight for your dreams."
I saved this quote for a special occasion, but I never knew the occasion would be so bittersweet and full of pain and fury. As I write this a Penny's from Heaven Foundation team member's day old baby girl fights for her life. The husband of another team member is at this moment in a ten hour surgery for a double lung transplant related to his experiences in Vietnam. I don't seem to be able to focus on work and am feeling quite off balance. Prayers and more prayers are flying upwards, and I quite simply feel the need to string words together to express my feelings.
At the Annual PFHF Christmas party I was presented with a precious gift of my favorite things...three inspirational books. One is called "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff", by Richard Carlson, Ph.D. The first sentence had me captured, "Often we allow ourselves to get all worked up about things that, upon closer examination, aren't really that big a deal."
We are all too willing to focus on the little day to day problems and blow them way out of proportion. This certainly includes me. Days and days of rain in South Texas and twelve muddy dog paws tracking in and out of my clean house send me into orbit. But upon closer examination, what if I didn't have my dogs? Sure my floor would be clean, but my life would be empty. I complain about having to park so far from my destination, only to realize that the walking will do me good. And on and on. So as Carlson says we sweat he small stuff and 'completely lose touch with the magic and beauty of life. When you commit to working toward this goal you will find that you will have far more energy to be kinder and gentler.'
Okay I get it. I try. I really do. But how do we practice what we preach? Today nothing is more important than my two dear friends who are struggling and fearful and waiting. Waiting for the white coats to appear and say all is fine...your baby, your husband will be just fine.
So today I take notice of those things the warrior mentioned. For me, I will enjoy the gray skies and cold air and the fact that my house is warm and my dogs are huddled around me as I type, and as I wipe my eyes occasionally. I bless them for being close and in their own way, understanding and consoling. I will trust the timing of my lessons. I will open my eyes and see the beauty around me, appreciate more the closeness of those I love and that love me back, I will trust my heart. I will allow no negativity into my day or life. Those that intentionally hurt or injure or criticize, I will remove from my path. I will clear the path to my heart.
Today I know that I am able to trust the dark moments and passages that sometimes consume us and those we love. I am going to try and breathe deeply, relax and trust the rhythm of life. I will realize that in these moments of frustration and angst, we learn that they are necessary moments. For without them, we would not be able to see the beauty that surrounds us every moment of every day.
I am going to turn on Christmas music, wrap some gifts and know that the universe has control. And that soon the answers will become clear. As my friends move from darkness into the light, they too will understand. And they too will 'fight for their dreams.' And in the end we will all be gentler and kinder.
"Trust even the bleak times.
When you reach the end of
the tunnel, then you will
know why this all had to be."