Tennessee Williams said, "We have to distrust each other. It is our only defense against betrayal." How horribly sad.
This morning, I find it somewhat normal that I perhaps find myself there again. It has been said that "Betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope." I guess I buy into that. I will go so far as to say that betrayal or loss of trust can't happen without love.
But what is this thing called trust?
I find myself close to suffocation when someone deceives me. I can take pretty much anything but that. Believing that there is something great on the horizon every morning becomes increasingly difficult. I am by no means a 'pollyanna.' But what I do know is that an optimistic outlook fills me with a sense of awe at every twist and turn this crazy life takes.
After loss of trust it takes courage to dare to dream again! You know, that one step at a time thing. Walking forward, not falling into the pit once again dug for you, takes courage.
I have learned that it takes time and sometime years to build up trust. And it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I will learn to stop letting my guard down, when people stop giving me reasons to keep it up.
So okay, there are two choices, we can either trust people until they fail us, or distrust people until they're proven trustworthy. The old saying, "Action speaks louder than words" still applies. People should be trusted by their actions not their words. And if you don't see action then you are giving them once again the ability to shatter your soul.
But for me - "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine....."