Two days ago, I had a new friend tell me, after reading only a few chapters of my PENNY'S FROM HEAVEN: STORIES OF HEALING book, that I was 'authentic.' I think that describes me perfectly. It had never been put quite so succinctly. I felt honored, vindicated, and humbled. For all the horrid things that have been said about me, I find that all that matters to me is yes I am 'authentic.' And that is enough.
Doors of imagination! I love these doors too. For it is when they are opened that we find vision and the good stuff, the right stuff, to turn our vision and our dreams into reality and then become authentic. It has been said that small keys open large doors. I believe this. For my life has been living proof.
Doors and windows can be an entrance, exit, opportunity, passage, transition, a chance or an attitude. Sometimes we go through a door and come back in, never to be the same again. Perhaps we come back in better equipped to understand our relationship to the world.
A door or window can be looked upon as an entrance to somewhere else, an unfathomable mystery might lie on the other side. Charlie Gordon in Flowers for Algernon said, "There are so many doors to open, I am impatient to begin." The potential is huge, for each door or window opened has the potential to lead somewhere completely different....a moment of passage perhaps.
So for me, I will think of my beautiful doors and windows as something to go through and back into. A place of discovery and looking forward and then again a place to return to solitude and peace.
And yes of course, a place to let the dogs in and to let the dogs out...repeatedly throughout the day. But to so do, I find again this sense of belonging. Belonging on both sides. Perhaps this is where my authenticity was born.
And for my warriors with PTSD that live in rooms and houses where the doors are permanently shut and locked, it is my hope they learn slowly that they have to be slightly braver than they are scared. They will also learn from the words of Charles Dickens, "A very little key will open a very heavy door." Perhaps in their case that key is a service dog.
Today take a moment as you walk through doors. What are your expectations and feelings when you do so? Perhaps you too will find that you have much more room to breathe when you take that step over the threshold.