I know no other way to do anything than to give it my best effort. Sometimes the well dries up and you come to a grinding halt. And sometimes you set aside your life to an extent that simply is not healthy. You lose the passion, the patience and the ability to take another step. Then sometimes someone steps in and holds your hand and holds you up, when others let you down and leave you alone in the dark.
I need a grinding halt. I need time to once again become creative and write, and visit the warriors with my dogs, that I so desperately fight for, and I need time to clean my closet. But perhaps a short stopover of one or two hours or a couple of days will allow me to once again find that what I am doing with this foundation is ultimately worth the pain, the aggravation, the grief, the heartache and unending hours of work.
For it is the faces of those we serve that haunt me, if I give up. If I allow others to deplete me and break me because I or the organization is only an option to them, I find this is not an answer. It is what I do, what I give back.
So exhausted this morning, I remember the words of a warrior who writes me two times a day from Georgia...'I don't know what I would do without you Mom." I only know I don't know what I would do without him and all the others like him. Strangely we need each other and what others think or feel about me is of no consequence.
I ask today, that you let your light shine, despite exhaustion. Ultimately this is the greatest gift you can give to others and to yourself. Work hard, give all you have, and you will find life. Just remember every once in a while to pause and muse on all that you have in you to give to others...others who need you far more than you will ever realize. It is the stuff life is made of...it is the stuff love is consumed with...it is the stuff that makes us real.
- Joseph Addison
Wow is this hitting home this morning.